I’ve been home from SheSpeaks for exactly one week and already I’m feeling discouraged. For the past two days I have wondered why I’m even trying to build a platform. Can I really write this book? Do people even care?
I don’t have many Facebook followers and switching to the new bog has been a bit discouraging. I can’t find anyone (that I can afford) to design it. Honestly, the thought of building my platform just makes me tired. I am SO NOT the girl to go around asking if I can speak at events. I update my Facebook page, but I don’t want to come across as desperate for more “likes.” Because let’s face it, that’s really not what it’s all about.
This morning I remembered four little words that I scribbled in my notes during the closing session at SheSpeaks.
Is HE Worth It??
Then I remembered a verse I read last night in 2nd Corinthians. Verse 3:5 says, “Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God.”
Another version says, “Not that we are adequate in ourselves to consider anything as coming from ourselves, but our adequacy is from God.”
Once again I’m reminded that this is about God. It’s about the story He has written for me and about using it for His glory. Who cares how many people like my Facebook page? So what if I don’t have a ton of people following my not-so-cute blog. What matters is that I am obedient to share my story when God asks me to. I have to stop trying so hard and trust that God will build my platform one, tiny, step at a time if He desires to.
I must be obedient and write. Even when it feels like I write, hit publish and send my words into cyber world, unsure if they are even making a difference. I must be obedient because He IS worth it!
After a few days of feeling very discouraged, I received a text message this morning from a friend who wants me to speak tonight during her women’s group. She said last night God placed it on her heart to ask me to share my story, but it was too late to call me. This is a huge answer to prayer and a reminder to keep writing and to keep sharing. When I was so close to throwing in the towel, God worked through a friend to remind me to keep sharing the amazing story He has written for me.
He’s worth it and He’s faithful!