This week I finished Kelly Minter’s latest Bible study, What Love Is. I have learned a lot digging deep into the letters of 1, 2, and 3 John.
Early in the study I came across these words: I don’t know of anything more meaningful than when, in the middle of the commotion, God taps us on the shoulder, whispers our name, and welcomes us into the room where He’s about to do something special, even secret.
I couldn’t help but think of the moments in my life when God has met me exactly where I’ve needed Him. The times when the Holy Spirit has revealed the next part of His plan.
I vividly remember the moment He whispered adoption. I was munching on chips and queso at a local restaurant with our small group. But there was no doubt the Holy Spirit had moved in that place.
I remember when He whispered, that is your baby as I prayed fervently for the young girl, pregnant, living at the homeless shelter.
I remember Him leading me to Isaiah 41:10 when I felt defeated; unworthy of being Jackson’s mama. When the struggles of Apraxia and Sensory Processing Disorder seemed too much.
I’ve picked you. I haven’t dropped you. Don’t panic. I’m with you. There’s no need to fear for I’m your God. I’ll give you strength. I’ll help you. I’ll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you. (The Message)
And the whisper that calmed my heart; the revelation of a plan bigger than overcoming Apraxia.
I stood worshipping on a Sunday morning; worried about the future. Questioning when and if Jackson would talk. I wondered what challenges he would face and if I was equipped to help him overcome them.
And that’s when I heard Him whisper – just as clear as the day He told me to adopt; just as powerful as the day He said Jackson would be my child – the most important thing is not that Jackson talks, but that he knows Me.
And that’s my job – to live my life showing my son what it means to have a relationship with Jesus.
And He reminds me: I’ve picked you. I haven’t dropped you. Don’t panic. I’m with you. There’s no need to fear for I’m your God. I’ll give you strength. I’ll help you. I’ll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you.
Yes, I still worry about the challenges looming in the distance; but my focus has changed.
I still pray daily that Jackson will overcome Apraxia; but my biggest prayer has become 3 John 4.
That one day I can say, I have no greater joy than to hear Jackson is walking in truth.
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