I almost stopped participating in this challenge around day 16.
Only a few days in and I could feel the Holy Spirit speaking to my soul. Revealing to me through these words I’m writing on glory in the ordinary that my focus isn’t where it should be. There’s too much emphasis on my platform and not enough on motherhood.
Motherhood brings God glory, and it’s His purpose for me during this season of my life. That doesn’t mean I can’t write, (or that I’ll stop completely) but it can’t be the main thing. I’ve got to close the computer, I’ve got to put down the phone, or I’m going to miss all the glorious moments I’ve been writing about this month.
What God’s been reiterating to me this past month is simple: my biggest platform is not based on book sales or Facebook followers.
My biggest platform begins at home. It’s the brown-eyed boy God has entrusted to me.
And my priorities need to change.
I’ve got to forget about the likes and the followers and the comments. Eternity doesn’t hinge on them, but these things do.
- Being Jackson’s prayer warrior.
- Teaching him about Jesus.
- Living my faith out loud for him to see.
- Loving him BIG
So there have been many days when I just didn’t feel like writing, even though I had an outline and knew what I wanted to say. The pressure to write and see this challenge through was there, but I could feel His spirit asking, does it really matter?
Yes, I believe my words matter. I believe that God has given me this gift and I’m to use it for His glory, but it’s not supposed to distract me from the most important thing.
What matters most are the little moments our children see that reveal our hearts for Jesus. We must bring our faith to life for our little ones.
So as #Write31Days comes to a close I will spend the remainder of 2014 with a new focus.
I will focus on my personal relationship with Christ – because sometimes I’m so busy pouring words into this space that I forget I can’t encourage you if I’m not letting God encourage me.
I’ll spend November and December soaking up His truth as I dive into two new studies by SheReadsTruth. I want Jesus to teach me so that I’m equipped to come back to this place and share with you.
Jackson has less than two months left as a two-year-old. I want to be present because I’m wondering where the past two years have gone. I no longer have a baby, but a little boy. And each day with him brings glory like nothing I’ve ever known because through the eyes of a child we find magic in the mundane.
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