Each day as I’m driving home from work, I start to get excited at the thought of our CIS approval letter sitting in my mailbox. I pull into the garage, throw the car into park, swing open the door and rush to the mailbox. Then I see that it’s empty or just full of bills and junk mail and my “hope balloon” quickly busts.
I drag myself inside and throw the pile of unwanted mail on the table and sulk a bit. Even the Easter cards that have been tucked between the bills don’t excite me like they normally would. I am waiting on one, single letter – it is the only thing keeping us from getting on the Wait List.
This is the first time throughout our adoption journey (so far) that my patience seems to be wearing thin. I think it’s because this one letter is what’s keeping us from sending in our Dossier. Not to mention, it’s completely out of my control (like most things in the adoption world).
I have prayed and prayed, but Satan still whispers lies like “what if the letter got lost” and I struggle to not let anxiety build in my heart over a piece of paper. Good golly it’s just a piece of paper – but it is SO important! It’s the last piece of the puzzle so that we can move forward in our adoption process.
Please, please Mrs. Postwoman bring my letter soon….